Most of my life's stress can be attributed to two sources: My brother, or myself. This is why I really want to go to college...
Simply put, I've spent most of my life trying to futilely solve my brother's problems, which drives me crazy. I also have extremely low self confidence, so I doubt everything I do. I will always have low self confidence until someone else can make me feel good about myself, because nothing I do makes me confident about me. But stressing about my brother can stop if I just stop being around him all the time, especially because all of his problems I try to solve can just be his latest emotional breakdown that we're both reading too much into. Sometimes they're not, but I can't solve them either way.
I will always have low self confidence until someone else can make me feel good about myself, because nothing I do makes me confident about me.
You're awesome, I'm awesome. Let's blow our respective popsicle stands, go to college, kick some ass, and get the girl in the end.
Trust me, that's the plan. Despite low self-confidence, I still try a lot of things even when I don't think I'll succeed. I don't think I'm honestly super smart, but I took APs because I knew I would be bored otherwise. I asked a girl out, not because I thought she'd say yes, but because I knew that I had to eventually. I don't know that I'll get the girl when I go to college. I don't really think I'm appealing. But I'm gonna try anyway.
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Simply put, I've spent most of my life trying to futilely solve my brother's problems, which drives me crazy. I also have extremely low self confidence, so I doubt everything I do. I will always have low self confidence until someone else can make me feel good about myself, because nothing I do makes me confident about me. But stressing about my brother can stop if I just stop being around him all the time, especially because all of his problems I try to solve can just be his latest emotional breakdown that we're both reading too much into. Sometimes they're not, but I can't solve them either way.