How did you come to your religious beliefs
Myself, I started out in a Episcopalian family, going to church on every other Sunday. I was a good little Episcopalian at first, but then I started having doubts. Then I started coming up with slightly heretical explanations, like maybe there really wasn't any Hell, but God lied about it so we'd be good. Then I decided that God could only be two of omniscient, omnipotent, and good and that I'd drop omnipotent and become a deist. Then I just sort of slided into agnosticism with wondering how we came to know things and why we believed what we did.
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So from a fairly young age I was exposed to the sheer variety of mutually incompatible religions that humanity has come up with, and there was never an expectation that I had to stick with any particular one of them. I started thinking of myself as an atheist or agnostic almost as soon as I thought of myself as anything at all. I fell out of even the social aspect of church once I graduated high school, and have been revelling in my empty Sundays ever since.
The footnote to this is that I was introduced to the Principia Discordia in college; Discordianism is religion taken precisely as seriously as it should be. This helped me to solve one of the long-standing annoyances of being an atheist: having nothing interesting to swear by.
Oh boy, I'm gonna catch some flack for that one.
I love futurama.
If you can't tell that a god exists, then it might as well not exist.
Funny thing is, I really like being Catholic. I'm certainly not the best one out there, but I stick by the Church and what it ultimately stands for. Maybe not what it currently stands for, but why it's there.
And, by the by, if you can't tell God exists then he's not an asshole deity like in D&D. The concept is there to comfort.
Man, these last two posts I really sound like a Thumper. I tell ya, I absolutely will not take up for those who force thier beliefs on others. Either way. I'd say I hate pushy Aetheists, but you guys don't even have the energy to believe in something. (thanks, Lewis Black)
On the other hand, if you're on a raft in the middle of a river things might be different. If you can't tell that the waterfall up ahead exists, then it might as well not exist. Until you go over the edge. Whoops.
That argument is a glorified "ignorance is bliss" retelling.
The Chuang-tzu is also a good read, but it's always struck me as a very different sort of book. Its chock full of lots of cool little anecdotes and parables though, such as the rather popular story of Chuang-tzu and the butterfly. The Lieh-tzu is also an interesting text, though I've read admitably less of it. It discusses the very fatalistic idea that the entire universe, including humans within it, operates on an almost mechanical level, and that neither what gods there are, or any action we take ourselves can do anything to change it.
However, I also believe in what I want to believe and I put them together such as Buddhism, really my family had a Buddha and the lucky Cat at home.
As a wise person said once in space and time: " I do not care what you believe in, just believe"
Because at the end, even if you do not believe in God, you gotta believe in yourself.
Around the middle of 7th grade, following in the footsteps of social difficulties in grade school, I started having what is generally termed a "crisis of faith," wherein I suddenly realized that none of this crap actually made sense to me. I backed out of it for a while and started critically examining many religions in an intellectual and phiolosophical fashion. Throughout the course of high school, I became an agnostic, as I realized that there was probably no way to every definitely answer the grand questions.
I've since morphed into a hard apathetic agnostic, with existentialist and nihilist leanings: I'm 95% certain that the answer can't be known, and even if we did, it wouldn't matter anyway. I debate and consider religions from a purely philosophical standpoint, dissecting holy texts and such to look for the actual meaning behind the stories, the secular lessons that were being taught via stories, the oldest method of teaching of which we know.
Mind you, I'm not anti-theist, because from the standpoint of intellectual exercise, the idea of religion (or at least theology) is very important. One must be willing to explore all avenues of thought in one's intellectual development, even those with which you may not agree or may not make sense. Aside from that, since I see all religions as being equal, in that they're all equally crap, your specific religious belief is of no consequence to me, so long as you're willing to talk about it and consider it.
Now the big turning point came when I was six. Before I continue I need to add one little fact. A few days before the following story took place I went on a school trip to the Maryland Science Center. There I learned about how soap works and about the human stomach. This information will come into play very shortly.
Being that I was six my parents of course enrolled me in Sunday school. You know, Jesus Camp. We were being taught that Jesus walked on water via the power of the lord. And I though about this for a second, then I raised my hand. The "teacher" called on me and I asked "how come Jesus didn't break the water's surface tension?" I don't remember exactly how I phrased it but I definitely said "surface tension."
The teacher just looked at me. She looked at me with total shock. I remember her answer exactly: "because God made it so." Okay. As a little budding science nerd, that answer made no sense to me what so ever. But I kept my mouth shut.
A little later we were taught about the dude in getting eaten by the whale. Of course my hand shot up. I asked "why wasn't (inset guys name) digested?" Similar answer from the teacher "because God didn't want him to be."
Now I remember this happening a few more times and finally the "teacher" gave up. She walked me out into the hall, told me to stay there and "think about my faith." Um...how exactly is a six-year-old supposed to do that anyway? So instead I sat down and played with the toy I had in my pocket.
My parents came to get me some time later, and they were surprised to see me in the hallway. I told them what happened, and then my mother confirmed with the "teacher". When she came out from speaking with the teacher she was really, really mad. I mean the type of mad that every kid knows they are in deeeeeeeeeeeep shit. When we got out to the car mom whipped around, picked me up, hugged and kissed me and said "you are so smart!" Being a little kid I was just happy that I wasn't in any trouble.
It wasn't until many years later that I learned about the conversation my Mom had with the "teacher". Apparently it went something like this:
(Please note that I am paraphrasing base on what my mother has told me)
Mom: Hi, I'm Matthew's Mother
Teach: Hello
Mom: May I ask, why was my son in the hallway?
Teach: He was disrupting the class. So I put him outside.
Mom: How was he disrupting the class exactly?
Teach: He was asking silly questions.
Mom: Silly questions?
Teach: Yes. During the teachings of the bible he was asking about how Jesus could walk on water and why So-in-so was not digested by the whale. If you ask me you son has no faith and needs to be taught better. I'm sorry but your not doing so well as a parent.
Mom:..........excuse me, but maybe it's the fact that my six year-old some is smarter than the fucking dumbass that is teaching this class.
And with that mom left the room.
Now this is only the first run in I have had with religion not making any sense to me in the least. But those are stories for another time. Right now however I am living my life religion free. I do realize there are things in this universe that are not explained but you know what? I can deal with that.
*The reasons for her childhood being ruined were not only the harsh rules, which forbade many things, and even limited social interaction with other people, but also a 1973 schism in the church, which led to considerable family drama, resulting in the ostracization of my family by other family members. Due to this alienation, and the rules of the religion, this cost my mother and her siblings many of their playmates.
My conclusions where the following:
1. If the god of the KJV bible exists, I no longer have any desire to worship him; he is petty, arbitrary, and conceited.
2. Such a being does not need to exist to explain the universe.
3. By Occam's Razor (though I didn't know of the term, or ol' Billie's phrasing of it) such a being therefore does not exist.
At that point, I became an atheist. The energy I had previously directed towards study of the Christian faith was instead applied to learning about new religions, philosophies, etc. Fast-forward a few years, and I stumble upon Buddhism. I think, "hey, this is neat...the whole structure of this faith/philosophy is built around learning shit. I can deal with that!" Later on, I discover Taoism, and find that it leads, for me, to better internal dialog about the nature of the universe. I read the Tao Te Ching, and am enlightened and perplexed by it. As a friend of mine recently said upon reading it, "I got the feeling I could contemplate the concepts in this book for the rest of my life, and never stop developing new ideas"
So, final conclusion and currently held beliefs: One of the main purposes of life (mine, at least) is to continue gaining knowledge of both the quantifiable and qualitative aspects of life, the universe, and everything. All things exist as a balance, and peace is achieved through harmony. Happiness in one's own life may require breaking said harmony, but strife is also an important part of life. There's more, but it's still being developed, and this post is running long ;-)
Wow, I'm sounding a bit like an Arts graduate aren't I?
I remember at the last census, when I was still living with my parents, being mad when they filled it out for me including listing my religion as Anglican/Christian.