Just a strange nerd who wandered into this forum when I listened to the podcast, which I did because Rym and Scott went to RIT, which is in my home city and is where I go to college (now). Came for the podcast, stayed for the crowd, despite them making me feel bad about myself every once in a while. But most things do that, so it doesn't really bother me in the long run. XD
I am not a cat if that's what you think. Stop thinking that. Stop thinking period, it'll hurt, especially if you're high or drunk or smoking cigarettes or panicking about something useless again. Go make some sweet music instead, yeah do that. Or play video games, those are cool. Goats are weird.
ALSO, DO NOT FUCK CATS. LIKE, SERIOUSLY, DON'T. BAD IDEA, WORSE THAN MOST OF THEM ACTUALLY. DON'T FUCK CATS OR THEY HISS AT PENIS.
It wasn't a PM flub. You all know a lot about my thoughts, and I want to know who you are.
Just a strange nerd who wandered into this forum when I listened to the podcast, which I did because Rym and Scott went to RIT, which is in my home city and is where I go to college (now). Came for the podcast, stayed for the crowd, despite them making me feel bad about myself every once in a while. But most things do that, so it doesn't really bother me in the long run. XD
I'm relatively chronically depressive. I just feel bad about myself and things. Failures tend to weigh a lot on me and make me feel useless. I don't like to go out and do things, and that makes me feel boring. My girlfriend likes to do stuff and I don't, and it makes me feel useless. I'm bad with families. Really bad. So bad. Disastrously bad. Sometimes I can't stand my family at all. Sometimes I'm pretty terrible. They think I'm really selfish, but I'm so much better when it comes to other people. I feel more okay sending someone I've never met on an internet forum a Christmas gift than I do my brother. That's how bad it gets. Despite all that, though, I still am going to make him my best man if/when I get married, because I have to.
There's plenty more. Can you handle all the annoying that is Axel's inner turmoils as of late?
I like to say I'm a sarcastic but loveable jerk to cover up my shyness, but I fail pretty bad. I'm painfully awkward one-on-one, but deal with large groups trivially. I'm ashamed of the fact that I'm not as creative or productive as I could be.
Also, my left shoulder is really loose and I've had to start rotator cuff exercises to stop it from popping out.
I'm a depressive jerk with commitment issues and social awkwardness and often a lack of human emotion. Most of my friends have been those of convenience and were quickly left behind. I have no drive in life and am filled with self loathing because of it. I constantly make jokes but really its just a coping mechanism.
I define myself in negative ways because it's my personality. I have low self-confidence. I also have yet to reach the point in life where I achieve all the things I want to, and the waiting around and trying to learn part sucks. Also, I'm hurt by the crippling fear that what I really want to do is not only unattainable, but is potentially something I'm bad at. It also seems like my alternative options are areas in which I may be lackluster.
I define myself in negative ways because it's my personality. I have low self-confidence. I also have yet to reach the point in life where I achieve all the things I want to, and the waiting around and trying to learn part sucks. Also, I'm hurt by the crippling fear that what I really want to do is not only unattainable, but is potentially something I'm bad at. It also seems like my alternative options are areas in which I may be lackluster.
SPOILERS: YOU ARE GOING TO DIE IN THE FUTURE AND THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO STOP IT. So grab dick, double click and porn and stuff. We can teach if you're prudish.
While I may die, I would like to accomplish something with my life. A lot of the things in this world (though not all of them) that I love were created by a human like myself. I would feel bad if I didn't return the favor. The possibility of me not doing that is what scares me and drives me to depression, among other things.
My main reason to life is that I just want to see what happens in the world. I hope for some sort of cyberization in my lifetime simply so that I can see how everything turns out.
I have been blessed to have my brain wired up to the roaring furnace of Creativity, burning it's images into the back of my eyes without my consent. It is my sacred duty to get as many on paper or an analog for consumption by others before my mortal shell is finally consumed from within by it's flames.
Hi, I'm DJ. I graduated from high school 11 days ago, and I'm currently folding pieces of paper into little squares at 2:45 in the morning. I'm a pretty positive person, except for when I'm not, which isn't that often. It is rather difficult to make me mad, and if you do, I am not one to hold a grudge. I'm not judgmental of other people.
I share a room with my younger brother, and I sleep on the top bunk. I have a small but close group of friends who I've known since the third grade. I'm introverted and not very talkative, but not actually that shy. I have neither a car nor a driver's license, which is problematic considering the fact that I live in a rural area.
I think it's good and entertaining to take an inventory of your negative traits every so often, too. It doesn't mean you're obsessing over them, or that your negative traits define you, but they are something you need to consider about yourself.
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Came for the podcast, stayed for the crowd, despite them making me feel bad about myself every once in a while. But most things do that, so it doesn't really bother me in the long run. XD
ALSO, DO NOT FUCK CATS. LIKE, SERIOUSLY, DON'T. BAD IDEA, WORSE THAN MOST OF THEM ACTUALLY. DON'T FUCK CATS OR THEY HISS AT PENIS.
I'm relatively chronically depressive. I just feel bad about myself and things. Failures tend to weigh a lot on me and make me feel useless. I don't like to go out and do things, and that makes me feel boring. My girlfriend likes to do stuff and I don't, and it makes me feel useless.
I'm bad with families. Really bad. So bad. Disastrously bad. Sometimes I can't stand my family at all. Sometimes I'm pretty terrible. They think I'm really selfish, but I'm so much better when it comes to other people. I feel more okay sending someone I've never met on an internet forum a Christmas gift than I do my brother. That's how bad it gets. Despite all that, though, I still am going to make him my best man if/when I get married, because I have to.
There's plenty more. Can you handle all the annoying that is Axel's inner turmoils as of late?
Also, my left shoulder is really loose and I've had to start rotator cuff exercises to stop it from popping out.
AM I DOING IT RITE GUISE?
While I may die, I would like to accomplish something with my life. A lot of the things in this world (though not all of them) that I love were created by a human like myself. I would feel bad if I didn't return the favor. The possibility of me not doing that is what scares me and drives me to depression, among other things.
I-AM-HERE-TO-TAKE-AMERICAN-JOBS
I share a room with my younger brother, and I sleep on the top bunk. I have a small but close group of friends who I've known since the third grade. I'm introverted and not very talkative, but not actually that shy. I have neither a car nor a driver's license, which is problematic considering the fact that I live in a rural area.