I know I'm living a pretty awesome life, that just doesn't make me confident in the way Scrym is. I don't attribute my life's awesomeness entirely to me, I prefer to be humble and say I'm at a good school with mostly good teachers, that my parents raised me to work hard and be an honest person, and that I do my best to be friendly and unprejudiced. I don't think I deserve to think of myself highly because of that. Maybe I shouldn't think of myself lowly, so neutrality is probably a better option.
Just a lesson from someone who's been around, if you don't fight for yourself at least a little you will forever be abused.
Stop that right now, or I will fly to London and smack you.
To be honest, I'm not sure any more. I'll probably feel fine tomorrow but it will come back and I'm grateful to everyone for being there when I'm at my worst.
I don't believe I will be able to be the most awesome person ever, but I'm gonna try anyways. I am depressed, but I also know that I really couldn't do too much better than where I am, having a girlfriend, doing well in school, etc.
Well, neither do I think I am the most awesome, but what is the point of having dreams if you don't strive for something above you? I know I am not the most talented or skilled artist ever, but I have goals I am always reaching for. I am not content with what I am right now, I always want to get better. I want to be stronger, smarter, better, faster. I think you misinterpret us. We do not think we are THE BEST EVER, but we think we are great and getting better! We are smart and will get smarter! That's what confidence is. The main difference between a ditch digger who says "This is all I can do and I will accept my lot" and one who says "I love digging! Someday, I'm going to get a backhoe and my ditches will be even better!" is confidence. It's not a matter of being "most awesome" merely being "awesome and becoming more awesome all the time." Edit: Also, I give credit where credit is due. I don't think I became awesome all on my own. I give thanks to the wonderful people who made me awesome.
When did I ever say "This is all I can do?" If I had that mentality, I wouldn't be in Game Design trying to make my dreams come true. I don't think it's possible for my dreams to actually happen, but I'm trying anyways.
The sadness you notice is more chemical than anything, as I've found. It's set off by random moments and bad lingering thoughts. I should get treatment, but I have neither the time nor the money to get medicine. My brother is on depression meds, and my parents pay right out the ass for them, so I'm not gonna go cause more problems.
That's no excuse at all, if you need help then get it. RIT has a great counseling center (http://www.rit.edu/studentaffairs/counseling/index.php) that is free to students (full and part-time). It was located above the health clinic on the quarter mile but, I'm not sure if it's moved since I left. It will take 4-6 weeks to make an appointment (that happens everywhere) so you should make one sooner rather than later. Call up their office or visit in person to make an appointment.
The sadness you notice is more chemical than anything, as I've found. It's set off by random moments and bad lingering thoughts. I should get treatment, but I have neither the time nor the money to get medicine. My brother is on depression meds, and my parents pay right out the ass for them, so I'm not gonna go cause more problems.
That's no excuse at all, if you need help then get it. RIT has a great counseling center (http://www.rit.edu/studentaffairs/counseling/index.php) that is free to students (full and part-time). It was located above the health clinic on the quarter mile but, I'm not sure if it's moved since I left. It will take 4-6 weeks to make an appointment (that happens everywhere) so you should make one sooner rather than later. Call up their office or visit in person to make an appointment.
It's true. Studies show that psychotherapy can greatly increase happiness, even if you don't have any major issues. If you have any actual issues at all, and therapy is available, you should definitely get it.
That's no excuse at all, if you need help then get it. RIT has a great counseling center (http://www.rit.edu/studentaffairs/counseling/index.php) that is free to students (full and part-time). It was located above the health clinic on the quarter mile but, I'm not sure if it's moved since I left. It will take 4-6 weeks to make an appointment (that happens everywhere) so you should make one sooner rather than later. Call up their office or visit in person to make an appointment.
As a current student, I can verify that this information is correct. I know people who are going through this; it's definitely helping them.
She brought her roommate, so that ruined my plan to get coffee and look at the art gallery in the student centre, but hey, got to see a Disney movie for free.
That sounds like a wasted opportunity there! Nah jokes, sounds like she had a friend with her to test the water. Assuming that it all went well then you stand a good chance of a second date.
See, look Axel! The people with the biggest egos are the ones that end up chasing dreams, getting applause, and traveling the globe to glamorous locales.
People have a perception that having a huge ego is a negative thing. Frequently, they are wrong. Many people with big egos have every reason to be extremely sure of themselves; Frank Lloyd Wright was one of the most egotistical men ever and managed to singlehandedly redefine American architecture. Those that have big egos and can't back them up look like idiots under close scrutiny.
Difference between "Weird Girls" and "Quirky Girls" is that weird != annoying. Also, it could also mean "I find Zooey Deschanel attractive." If people look embarrassed to be around you, you are not "shaking things up," you're annoying and unpleasant to be around. In a similar vein, most girls who say they love "awkward nerdy guys" really mean "I love Micheal Sera/Jesse Eisenberg." Do you know what it's like to even hold a conversation with an actually really awkward person? It's interminable. Absolute torture.
If I could briefly touch upon the part about self-confidence. Working security at a hospital teaches you the difference between self-confidence and arrogance. Since the majority of our conflicts are with people who are in emotionally charged states (alcohol, drugs, death of family member), you learn to be able to project your self-confidence to defuse the person and situation. If arrogance is used instead, the conflict escalates, and even if you are stronger than a Kodiak bear, faster than a cheetah and more vicious than a great white shark, the point is that by drawing yourself and the person you are dealing with into physical conflict, nobody wins. People get hurt, you look bad, and staff, patients, and visitors will have less confidence in you being able to handle situations.
See, look Axel! The people with the biggest egos are the ones that end up chasing dreams, getting applause, and traveling the globe to glamorous locales.
It has nothing to do with ego. Confidence comes from developing skills to such a level that you know you can rely on them. That is all. Self confidence comes from developing your character until you know you can rely on that. Other entertainers ask me if I'm nervous before going on stage, and the truth is I don't have to be nervous, as I know there is no luck involved in me doing a good show. Same with life in general! I don't need good luck, as I have enough skills to rise above mere chance to ensure a good life.
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I'll probably feel fine tomorrow but it will come back and I'm grateful to everyone for being there when I'm at my worst.
Edit: Also, I give credit where credit is due. I don't think I became awesome all on my own. I give thanks to the wonderful people who made me awesome.
Just tell me when to pull the trigger.
Join us, Axel. What do you have to lose?
They are like hypnotizing and stuff.
I has the bangs >_>